Thank you. The blessing of having posted it on that website with such a larger audience is that I know (because of email) that it's already reached, and touched, a person or two who've been through similar things.
I think the shadow is still there, tbh - if anything it's harder now than it has been at some times in the past, because I'm so much more aware of everything (dissociation can be a blessing), but haven't gotten to the point in the work where it's mostly resolved yet. And on some level, there's just stuff that never goes away, you know? I'd love to think I won't still be feeling the physical effects of living that way 20 years from now, but it seems rather unlikely.
But still, the overall effect of the work I've done has been a blessing. Akin to how much lighter my head always felt when I got a hair cut when I was a teenager - just hoping it eventually feels as much lighter as my head did the first time I shaved off all my hair :D.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2016-07-28 09:12 pm (UTC)I think the shadow is still there, tbh - if anything it's harder now than it has been at some times in the past, because I'm so much more aware of everything (dissociation can be a blessing), but haven't gotten to the point in the work where it's mostly resolved yet. And on some level, there's just stuff that never goes away, you know? I'd love to think I won't still be feeling the physical effects of living that way 20 years from now, but it seems rather unlikely.
But still, the overall effect of the work I've done has been a blessing. Akin to how much lighter my head always felt when I got a hair cut when I was a teenager - just hoping it eventually feels as much lighter as my head did the first time I shaved off all my hair :D.